Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Letting Go

During the last couple of weeks I have been letting go of some things.

First off I had to let my cat Duke go by putting him to sleep. That was such a heartbreaking thing for me to do. I feel empty and so alone now it is very sad and depressing.

About a week or so ago Safe Nest came to my house to pick up clothing donations. My roommate told me to get rid of all of my oversized clothing now that I am much thinner. This was easy and hard at the same time. I have been reduced to a few pairs of pants and a couple of dresses.

I had a talk with my roommate about people who are in my life who I have met when I was in a self destructive phase. They really don't keep in touch with me at all and it is hurtful and frustrating. I told her about one person who has repeatedly pushed my buttons, used and hurt me to their advantage. She asked me why do I want to maintain a friendship with this person after all that this individual has done to cause me pain. I told her that I try to give people the benefit of the doubt and then she called me a masochist. It was then I realized that she was RIGHT!!!

The thoughts turning in my head are these, I let all of this go what do I have left? What do I have to look forward to? What can I do to replace what I have lost?

3 comments:

Mary said...

Hi Maria, Thanks for coming by my site, I have thought about getting my poems published but I have no clue as to how to go about doing it.

I am so sorry for the loss of your pet. I know what it is like, I had to do the same thing a few years ago. They are a part of your family, and you miss them so much. If you let go of the past, you will make new friends, friends that you know will be there for you. Think of the future, not of the past..take care my friend....hugsss Mary



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Ginger G. said...

Wow Marie, I totally am with you on this. I am in the process of letting things go as well. A friendship of over 10 years came to an end yesterday. I'm a bit raw from it, but I know it is probably for the better.
And I'm so sorry to hear about your pet. Pets are family, so it can be very difficult.

And congratulations on your book! That's awesome! I'm adding your blog to the list of blogs I follow on my new blog page. Thanks for breaking the silence and helping others to do the same.

Patricia Singleton said...

Letting go of things and people that are no longer good for me or no longer have value for me is a sign of growth for me. It is a healthy way of letting go of the past and all of the pain that I carried around for so many years of my life. Letting go means having room for new things and new people to come into my life.

You will attract new, healthier people as you grow and become healthier. As you learn to love and nurture yourself, you will attract people that will love and nurture the new you as well. The people that you have around you, that you let get close reflect, like a mirror, how you feel about yourself. That is another reason to get healthy.